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Thursday, July 30, 2020

PTSD Talk Therapy Doesn't Lead to Relapse in Recovery

PTSDMany Americans could be at risk of developing post-traumatic stress disorder due to the COVID-19 pandemic. Those living with any mental illness face significant obstacles at this time, as well. Any person in recovery for addiction and co-occurring mental health disorders must prioritize their well-being every day.

While these are challenging times financially for millions of us, it's vital to continue taking steps to address your mental and behavioral needs. Attend 12 Step meetings and call your support group whenever you feel the need. If you see a therapist, please do not let up because of the coronavirus. Counselors are utilizing virtual platforms to serve the needs of their patients.

In the last several months, more and more men and women have reported experiencing mental illness symptoms. Those who find themselves dealing with psychological distress benefit when they don't ignore their symptoms; unfortunately, many people are accustomed to shrugging off mental health conditions because of misconceptions and stigma.

If you are feeling alone with what you are experiencing, please keep in mind that one in five Americans has a psychiatric disorder. What's more, there is a large community of individuals in recovery who can support you along the way. Anyone struggling with behavioral health disorders like addiction and mental illnesses can recover with the help of treatment providers, mutual-help groups, and professional therapy.

It's worth remembering that new conditions can arise while in recovery. Traumatic events, such as natural disasters or a public health crisis, can jeopardize your progress. If you've been significantly affected by COVID-19, then you may consider seeking the assistance of a counselor, psychologist, or psychiatrist.

Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) disproportionately impacts men and women living with alcohol or substance use disorder. PTSD symptoms can be a catalyst for relapse if left unaddressed. According to Johns Hopkins Medicine, around one-fourth of people living with addiction also have PTSD.

PTSD Talk Therapy Doesn’t Trigger Relapse in Recovery


It's natural to avoid talking about painful memories, but doing so is beneficial in many ways. A failure to process what you have been through can lead to self-destructive behaviors. Mutual-help groups like Alcoholics Anonymous can help with what you've experienced; however, it might not be enough for some individuals. You might have concerns that facing your trauma will do more harm than good or be the impetus for a relapse. Some providers are under that opinion too.

New research appearing in the Journal of Traumatic Stress shows that PTSD talk therapy doesn't cause a drug or alcohol relapse. The study involved comparing the week-to-week craving comparisons of 44 patients. The researchers found that participants had no rise in stress or cravings for drugs after PTSD therapy sessions.

"Now that we have evidence that treating PTSD won't impact recovery, patients can request therapy, and mental health providers have a duty to make it available," said study author Jessica Peirce, associate professor of psychiatry and behavioral sciences at Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine. "There is a lot more resilience within this population than many health care providers give them credit for, and not offering the proper treatment is doing patients a disservice."

Faith-Based Co-Occurring Disorder Treatment


At Celebrate Hope, we offer medical and therapeutic assistance for individuals living with co-occurring disorders or dual diagnosis. We treat both use disorders and accompanying mental illnesses alongside one another. Please contact us today to learn more about our faith-based co-occurring disorder treatment program.

Friday, July 24, 2020

Addiction Treatment Centers Take COVID-19 Precautions

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People living the disease of addiction who are actively using drugs or alcohol still require help, despite the COVID-19 pandemic. The American addiction epidemic existed long before this public health crisis and will be present long after the matter is suppressed.

Public health precautions have led to border closures and greater scrutiny at every point of entry in the United States. The result: getting drugs into the country is significantly more challenging, and many people will resort to desperate measures to sate their addictive needs. With few avenues for acquiring illicit substances, many are considering taking steps toward recovery.

Fortunately, addiction treatment centers are still operating across the country. Such programs have had to alter their operations in many ways to ensure the safety of their clients. Nevertheless, it’s normal that those who need assistance harbor concerns about contracting the coronavirus while in treatment.

Close Quarter Recovery


Addiction treatment centers emphasize the importance of working closely with others who share similar goals. Throughout the day, clients attend group therapy and socialize with each other at night. Many inpatient treatment centers bunk more than one client to a room, and not just to save space. It’s common to bond and form friendships with the people you share a bedroom with at the facility.

Recovery is about fellowship, inside treatment and out. Rehab centers teach clients how to rely on their peers to achieve long-term recovery. Progress doesn’t happen in a vacuum. Life-long bonds are often formed in addiction treatment centers; you meet and befriend people you can call when problems arise.

In light of COVID-19, there are concerns about safely social distancing at residential treatment centers. Staff members have had to change the structure to ensure clients keep their distance from one another, and regularly screen for the virus to prevent an outbreak. You can rest assured that clinicians and support staff diligently strive to ensure that patients can focus on their recovery rather than live in fear of contracting a deadly virus.

Fears of Inpatient Addiction Treatment


It’s hard to deny that it isn’t challenging to institute social distancing protocols in a treatment center. Nevertheless, Celebrate Hope at Hope By The Sea, and many others are rising to the challenge. We implore men and women to believe that addiction treatment providers have their best interests at heart and are doing everything in their power to protect clients from the pandemic.

There are reports that even though drug and alcohol use is on the rise, fewer people are seeking addiction treatment. Marvin Ventrell, CEO of the National Association of Addiction Treatment Providers (NAATP), reports that around 1,000 members saw a 40 to 50 percent census drop in March and April.

The above data is concerning, especially when you consider that opioid overdoses could be up 40 percent during the pandemic, according to Dr. Nora Volkow, Director of the National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA). With substance use on the rise, people need to have faith in treatment more than ever.

“It’s hard to underestimate the effects of the pandemic on the community with opioid use disorder,” said Dr. Caleb Alexander, a professor of epidemiology and medicine at the Johns Hopkins Bloomberg School of Public Health. “The pandemic has profoundly disrupted the drug markets. Normally that would drive more people to treatment. Yet treatment is harder to come by.” 

Addiction Treatment During a Pandemic


During these troubling times, we invite you or a loved one to start celebrating hope today! All CDC COVID-19 guidelines are being followed. Please contact us to learn more about our faith-based addiction treatment program and how we ensure that our clients are safe.

Tuesday, June 30, 2020

Raising Awareness About PTSD

PTSD
Last month, we directed our focus on mental health and co-occurring mental illnesses that accompany addiction. May was Mental Health Month. Today, we would like to direct your attention toward post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Every June is PTSD Awareness Month.

PTSD is a condition you may hear about a lot in the coming months and years in the wake of the COVID-19 pandemic. The coronavirus public health crisis has impacted countless lives across the globe. More than 2.5 million Americans have tested positive for COVID-19, and more than 120 thousand have died from health complications related to the virus.

Post-traumatic stress can arise in a person's life for a number of reasons. It's not just people in the military who contend with the severe form of mental illness. Experiencing any kind of traumatic event, such as the loss of a loved one, can have a dramatic impact on a person's life.

Prolonged stents of loneliness and isolation can have a negative impact on your psychological well-being. It's worth noting that millions of Americans live alone and cannot rely on others' support while weathering the pandemic storm.

Isolation also has a pernicious effect on men and women who struggle with mental illness. Those living with mental health disorders have found the current crisis a real challenging event. With no end in sight, anxiety plagues millions of people, including those who contend with PTSD.

PTSD Awareness Month: Treatment Works


PTSD is not a rare disorder; some 8 million people live with PTSD in America. At this time, it is vital to support those living with the condition and let those with untreated post-traumatic stress know that treatment works. Many people who meet the criteria for PTSD also struggle with addiction. Self-medicating with drugs and alcohol is exceptionally common amongst those afflicted by the condition.

Addicts and alcoholics living with co-occurring PTSD must receive simultaneous treatment for both conditions. Each of us can play a role in raising awareness and encouraging those who are struggling to seek assistance. We can all make a difference in the lives of Veterans and anyone who has experienced trauma. It's a critical mission; the National Center for PTSD points out that:

"Most people who have PTSD don't get the help they need...Everyone with PTSD—whether they are Veterans or civilian survivors of sexual assault, serious accidents, natural disasters, or other traumatic events—needs to know that treatments really do work and can lead to a better quality of life."

As the month ends and all year long, you can join the National Center for PTSD in raising awareness and help people in your community find the courage to seek treatment. Men and women living with untreated mental and behavioral health disorders are at significant risk and more prone to self-destructive behaviors and suicidal ideations. Please keep in mind:  

Anyone can develop PTSD at any age. There are factors that can increase the chance someone will develop PTSD, and these are often not under that person's control.
 

Faith-Based Dual Diagnosis Treatment


Celebrate Hope is a faith-based addiction treatment center in Southern California. We utilize evidence-based therapies, 12 Step principles, and the teachings of Jesus Christ to help men and women overcome addiction and co-occurring mental illnesses like PTSD. Please contact us today to begin the journey of recovery.

Thursday, June 18, 2020

Risk Factors for Youth Substance Use

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Since the beginning of America’s opioid epidemic, research has focused on how drug use begins and how it progresses. Many different factors, environmental and genetic, can contribute to someone’s risk for a substance use disorder.

The Facts of Youth Substance Use 


Since 1975, the National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA) has monitored trends of drug and alcohol consumption among adolescents. Current data reveals that while the prevalence of cigarette use and binge drinking have dropped in recent years, the use of tobacco products remains high. Marijuana use has increased, with 12.5% of 8th graders, 28.8% of 10th graders, and 36.4% of 12th graders reporting that they had used the drug within the past year. Prescription medications like Vicodin, Oxycontin, Adderall, and Ritalin are of particular concern; in 2009, the CDC reported that more than 20% of high school students had misused a prescription drug. 

The risks of substance use among young people are significant. Research shows that using drugs and alcohol earlier in life can result in increased rates of sexually transmitted infections, juvenile delinquency, vehicular fatalities, and other issues associated with mental and physical health. Adolescents are particularly vulnerable due to the underdeveloped state of their brains, which can lead to worsened decision-making abilities and increased long-term effects of alcohol and drugs. Finally, using these substances in one’s teen years can result in an increased risk of serious drug use and dependence later in life. 

Risk Factors 


It is important to know that risk factors do not predict a child’s future; instead, they provide a general gauge regarding the likelihood of drug or alcohol use. By addressing risk factors early and providing extra assistance to higher risk children, it is possible to avoid the path of substance use. Prominent risk factors for youth substance use include

Family history. If a child’s family members have had addiction problems in the past, there is a heightened biological and social risk that this child will misuse alcohol or drugs. Adults should let their children know that they are more likely to develop drug or alcohol problems when they reach their early teens. 

History of trauma. Research shows that children who have been through car accidents, sexual abuse, or other traumatic incidents are more likely to abuse drugs and alcohol later in life. It is vital for parents to help their teens to receive proper treatment for these concerns. 

Impulse control issues. Teens who love risk-taking or who have difficulty controlling their impulses are more likely to use drugs and alcohol. Because teens’ brains are not fully developed, it is critical that parents educate their children on the risk factors for youth substance use. 

Mental health problems. Children with diagnoses like depression, attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), or anxiety are at higher risk for addiction. These individuals aren’t guaranteed to develop a substance use disorder, but because of their reduced ability to regulate emotions and behavior, parents should be watchful. An open dialogue with your child’s primary care provider is advised. 

How to Prevent Youth Substance Use 


Teens use drugs and alcohol for a variety of reasons, and understanding these motivations is critical to prevention efforts. During this phase of their lives, young people struggle to cope with transitions, grown-up emotions, and hormonal surges. They may turn to drugs in an attempt to escape or self-medicate feelings of depression and anxiety. It’s also possible that they see substance use as a tool of their rebellion, or as a way to fit in. The risk factors for youth substance use are as complex as teenagers themselves. However, it is possible to prevent them from taking over your child’s life.

Know your teen’s activities and friends. Be aware of their whereabouts, and find out which adult-supervised activities your child is interested in. Encourage them to get involved in these activities, rather than letting them have unlimited downtime – boredom can be a reason that teens turn to substance use. 

Create rules and consequences. Family rules are important to young people and serve as helpful boundaries for their behavior. Explain what these rules are – for example, you may forbid riding home with a driver who has been drinking – and consistently enforce the consequences when necessary. 

Know the signs of substance use. Early intervention is key, and behavioral change is usually one of the first things parents notice. If your child is using drugs, you may observe worsened academic performance, self-isolation and secrecy, complaints from teachers and classmates, unexplained disappearances, changing friend groups, and defiant or disrespectful behavior. Keep an eye out for physical signs of substance use, including slurred speech, mood swings, inappropriate laughter, loud or obnoxious behavior, paranoia, low energy levels, and unexplained changes to their personality. 

Set a good example. Parents should model the behavior they wish to see – do not drink to excess, misuse prescription medications, or use illicit drugs. This is particularly salient for those in recovery, who should avoid drinking or drug use altogether. By setting a good example, you show your child how to behave and how to overcome the risk factors for youth substance use. 

Faith-Based Addiction Treatment 


Celebrate Hope at Hope By The Sea is a faith-based addiction treatment program rooted in the 12 Steps and the teachings of Christ. Many of our clients first began a pattern of substance abuse in their youth and are now working to lead prosperous lives in recovery. Others reached the age of 18 and realized that treatment is necessary. For more information about our evidence-based addiction treatment, contact us today.

Friday, May 29, 2020

Mental Health Awareness Month: Ending Stigma

Mental Health
The month of May has been especially challenging for millions of Americans living with and mental health disorders. Nearly two million Americans have contracted the coronavirus COVID-19, and 100,652 have lost their lives to the deadly virus. This is an unprecedented time in modern history, and the events of the last few months have severely impacted the entire country.

More than 40 million Americans have been laid off, fired, or furloughed. The unemployment rate has exponentially eclipsed the "Great Recession" of 2008 and will likely surpass the "Great Depression" of 1929. However, unlike the former sources of significant unemployment, this crisis is the result of an invisible force that has nothing to do with greed.

All of us are living in an unrecognizable world; face masks, social distancing, and government-mandated stay at home orders, to name a few. Millions of individuals are living in fear for their lives as the death toll continues to rise globally. At least 360,000 people have died from health complications related to the coronavirus worldwide. Americans nearly make up a third of the global death toll.

For the one in five Americans who contend with a mental illness every day, the last three months have been traumatic. Stress and feelings of uncertainty trigger symptoms of anxiety, depression, and post-traumatic stress disorder. When people living with mental illness feel backed into a corner, they are apt to resort to self-destructive coping mechanisms.

Stigma prevents people from reaching out for professional help; fewer than half of American s living with a mental illness receive the assistance they require. Now, more than ever, we need to work tirelessly to change that statistic.

Mental Health Awareness Month 2020


A new study predicts that the COVID-19 pandemic could lead to as many as 150,000 Americans dying from alcohol, drugs, or suicide this year. Naturally, many of those people will have pre-existing mental health conditions. Many deaths can be prevented if actions are taken to remind people that they are not alone.

May is Mental Health Awareness Month. The theme this year is "You Are Not Alone." The National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) and Mental Health America (MHA) asks that we all join forces to break the stigma of mental illness that is a barrier to treatment. Each of us can play a critical role in saving lives during these troubling times of uncertainty. NAMI writes that the:  

"You are Not Alone" campaign features the lived experience of people affected by mental illness to fight stigma, inspire others and educate the broader public. Now more than ever before, it is important for the mental health community to come together and show the world that no one should ever feel alone. The campaign builds connection and increases awareness with the digital tools that make connection possible during a climate of physical distancing. Even in times of uncertainty, the NAMI community is always here, reminding everyone that you are not alone. 

How can you help during Mental Health Month? For one, you can share your story and experience with mental illness, provided you feel comfortable. You can also take to your social media account to disseminate #NotAlone graphics and messages with your community and mental health resources with your friends who may be suffering in silence.

Faith-Based Addiction and Co-Occurring Mental Illness Treatment


At Celebrate Hope, we can help you or someone you care about with addiction and co-occurring mental health disorders. We rely on evidence-based therapies along with the teachings of Jesus Christ to help our clients begin a journey of lasting recovery.

The Celebrate Hope team is keeping every soul impacted by COVID-19 in our thoughts and prayers.

Friday, May 1, 2020

Easter for People in Faith-Based Recovery

Faith-Based Recovery
The last three months have been especially hard for millions of Americans, particularly for men and women in addiction recovery. Sheltering in place and stay at home orders have altered the trajectory of all our lives. All non-essential businesses are closed, and those in recovery have not been able to attend meetings in person.

For those working faith-based addiction recovery programs, attending their local house of worship has proved impossible in most places. Countless people recovering from addiction rely on the support of their congregations and spiritual leaders.

Fortunately, your higher power, Jesus Christ, is with you wherever you go, whether you are at home in isolation or church. You can pray at any time, and God is always listening. If you remember that His presence is around you, then it will help keep your recovery intact through this pandemic.

Now is an excellent time to make gratitude lists and share with your recovery peers how grateful you are to have their support in your life. You have the power to brighten other people’s day and strengthen your program in the process. We are all in this together and are praying for one another to stay safe and sober.

It’s hard to predict how much longer life will be the way it is considering that the COVID-19 death toll continues to climb across the nation. The Washington Post reports that 1,097,249 are infected in America, and 64,260 have died to date in the United States.

An Interesting Easter for People in Recovery


Adjusting to the new normal is no easy task, but we all must do our best and find uplifting things to do while at home. You can read your Bible and The Big Book. There are a number of podcasts and inspirational reading materials available online.

You may be aware that Pope Francis celebrated Easter Sunday Mass last month on YouTube to a mostly empty room, followed by the Pope’s “Urbi et Orbi” (To the City and to the World) blessing that is traditionally given only on Christmas and Easter.


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On the same day, April 12, 2020, the Italian global music icon Andrea Bocelli was invited by the City of Milan and the Duomo cathedral to give a solo performance representing a message of love, healing, and hope to Italy and the world.


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You do not have to be a Catholic to appreciate the steps religious leaders and musicians are taking to shine a light on the dark times. Perhaps you will enjoy both videos and take time to reflect on your spirituality during this public health crisis.

California Faith-Based Addiction Recovery


Please contact Celebrate Hope if you require assistance with addiction or co-occurring mental illness. Our addiction professionals can help you get on a path to recovery and reconnect with your Lord and Savior. We utilize evidence-based therapies, 12 Step recovery, and the teaching of Jesus Christ to bring about lasting recovery.

Friday, April 17, 2020

Addiction Recovery and "The Hounds of Heaven"

addiction recoveryWeeks of social distancing and sheltering in place have had a significant impact on all of us. The human being is social in nature; we are communal and rely on one another for support. Being cut off from our friends and family is challenging, but necessary for contending with the COVID-19 pandemic.

Over the last couple of weeks, we have seen confirmed cases of coronavirus grow exponentially. Nearly 700,000 Americans have tested positive for COVID-19, and almost 37,000 have died from complications related to the virus.

While there is rambling on the television that “stay at home” orders may be lifted soon, experts warn that such a move is premature. A severe lack of testing means that we don’t fully know how many Americans have the virus. With that in mind, there is a high likelihood that sheltering in place protocols will continue indefinitely.

People working programs of addiction recovery are doing their best to maintain their sobriety despite the stress, anxiety, depression, isolation, and unemployment. Members of the community are able to connect online via video conferencing platforms, which is helpful.

Still, there are significant chunks of one’s day that need to be filled in order to keep from entertaining thoughts of drugs and alcohol. Praying throughout the day is one way to keep your spirituality alive and well. Reading and writing are beneficial too.

Indeed, millions are binge-watching television shows and streaming movies, but there comes a time when that ideal behavior is exhausting. Do your best to find a balance in your daily activities and do things that stimulate your mind and spirit.


National Poetry Month



Aside from reading books and magazines, you may want to consider poetry. For those working programs of faith-based addiction recovery, you will be pleased to know that there is a lot of poetry that incorporates elements of Christianity. Since April is National Poetry Month, we thought you would find it interesting to learn about a truly gifted Victorian Era poet.

Many poets were devoutly religious, and some were also plagued by addiction during their lifetime. One such poet was Francis Thompson (December 16, 1859–November 13, 1907). He was an English poet who had both a short and remarkable life; he left behind some of the most beautiful poetic verses when he died from tuberculosis at the age of 46.

Thompson was expected to become a priest despite the fact that he wished to be a writer. When priesthood was no longer an option, he tried his hand at medicine, but that was not his calling either. After leaving school, he moved back to his parents' home in Northern England.

One morning his sister woke up to find a note, which indicated Francis had run off to London. Once there, he fell on hard times; Thompson would eventually become homeless and addicted to the opioid tincture laudanum. He was down and out to be sure but was still writing. One day he dropped off a manuscript and some poems to a publisher, and the man instantly knew that there was something special in Thompson.

The publisher convinced Francis to seek medical help for his laudanum addiction and then stay at a monastery in the country to recover and prevent the risk of relapse. While under the care of monks, and no longer in the yoke of opium addiction, Thompson healed and reconnected with God. He began to write with a new sense of purpose. At the monastery, he wrote one of the most beautiful poems about redemption and finding the embrace of God, titled “The Hound of Heaven.” Please watch a fascinating video about Francis Thompson’s life:


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"The Hounds of Heaven"

I fled Him, down the nights and down the days; 
I fled Him, down the arches of the years; 
I fled Him, down the labyrinthine ways 
Of my own mind; and in the midst of tears 
I hid from Him, and under running laughter. 
Up vistaed hopes I sped; 
And shot, precipitated, 
Adown Titanic glooms of chasmed fears, 
From those strong Feet that followed, followed after.

But with unhurrying chase,
And unperturbed pace, Deliberate speed, majestic instancy,

They beat - and a Voice beat 
More instant than the Feet -'All things betray thee, who betrayest Me'.

I pleaded, outlaw-wise, 
By many a hearted casement, curtained red, 
Trellised with intertwining charities; 
(For, though I knew His love Who followed, 
Yet was I sore adread 
Lest, having Him, I must have naught beside.) 
But, if one little casement parted wide, 
The gust of His approach would clash it to: 
Fear wist not to evade, as Love wist to pursue. 
Across the margent of the world I fled, 
And troubled the gold gateway of the stars, 
Smiting for shelter on their clanged bars; 
Fretted to dulcet jars 
And silvern chatter the pale ports o' the moon.

I said to Dawn: Be sudden - to Eve: Be soon; 
With thy young skiey blossom heap me over
From this tremendous Lover - 
Float thy vague veil about me, lest He see! 
I tempted all His servitors, but to find 
My own betrayal in their constancy, 
In faith to Him their fickleness to me, 
Their traitorous trueness, and their loyal deceit. 
To all swift things for swiftness did I sue; 
Clung to the whistling mane of every wind. 
But whether they swept, smoothly fleet, 
The long savannahs of the blue; 
Or, whether, Thunder-driven, 
They clanged his chariot 'thwart a heaven, 
Plashy with flying lightnings round the spurn o' their feet:- 
Fear wist not to evade as Love wist to pursue. 
Still with unhurrying chase, 
And unperturbed pace, 
Deliberate speed, majestic instancy, 
Came on the following Feet, 
And a Voice above their beat - 
'Naught shelters thee, who wilt not shelter Me.'

I sought not more after that which I strayed 
In face of man or maid; 
But still within the little children's eyes 
Seems something, something that replies, 
They at least are for me, surely for me! 
I turned me to them very wistfully; 
But just as their young eyes grew sudden fair 
With dawning answers there, 
Their angel plucked them from me by the hair.

Come then, ye other children, Nature's - share 
With me (said I) 'your delicate fellowship; 
Let me greet you lip to lip, 
Let me twine with you caresses, 
Wantoning 
With our Lady-Mother's vagrant tresses, 
Banqueting 
With her in her wind-walled palace, 
Underneath her azured dais, 
Quaffing, as your taintless way is, 
From a chalice Lucent-weeping out of the dayspring'. 
So it was done: 
I in their delicate fellowship was one - 
Drew the bolt of Nature's secrecies. 
I knew all the swift importings 
On the wilful face of skies; 
I knew how the clouds arise 
Spumed of the wild sea-snortings; 
All that's born or dies 
Rose and dropped with; made them shapers 
Of mine own moods, or wailful divine; 
With them joyed and was bereaven. 
I was heavy with the even, 
When she lit her glimmering tapers 
Round the day's dead sanctities. 
I laughed in the morning's eyes. 
I triumphed and I saddened with all weather, 
Heaven and I wept together, 
And its sweet tears were salt with mortal mine: 
Against the red throb of its sunset-heart 
I laid my own to beat, 
And share commingling heat; 
But not by that, by that, was eased my human smart. 
In vain my tears were wet on Heaven's grey cheek. 
For ah! we know not what each other says, 
These things and I; in sound I speak - 
Their sound is but their stir, they speak by silences. 
Nature, poor stepdame, cannot slake my drouth; 
Let her, if she would owe me, 
Drop yon blue bosom-veil of sky, and show me 
The breasts of her tenderness: 
Never did any milk of hers once bless 
My thirsting mouth. 
Nigh and nigh draws the chase, 
With unperturbed pace, 
Deliberate speed, majestic instancy; 
And past those noised Feet 
A voice comes yet more fleet - 
'Lo! naught contents thee, who content'st not Me.'

Naked I wait Thy love's uplifted stroke! 
My harness piece by piece Thou has hewn from me, 
And smitten me to my knee; 
I am defenceless utterly. 
I slept, methinks, and woke, 
And, slowly gazing, find me stripped in sleep. 
In the rash lustihead of my young powers, 
I shook the pillaring hours 
And pulled my life upon me; grimed with smears, 
I stand amidst the dust o' the mounded years - 
My mangled youth lies dead beneath the heap. 
My days have cracked and gone up in smoke, 
Have puffed and burst as sun-starts on a stream. 
Yea, faileth now even dream 
The dreamer, and the lute the lutanist; 
Even the linked fantasies, in whose blossomy twist 
I swung the earth a trinket at my wrist, 
Are yielding; cords of all too weak account 
For earth with heavy griefs so overplussed. 
Ah! is Thy love indeed 
A weed, albeit an amarinthine weed, 
Suffering no flowers except its own to mount? 
Ah! must - 
Designer infinite! - 
Ah! must Thou char the wood ere Thou canst limn with it? 
My freshness spent its wavering shower i' the dust; 
And now my heart is as a broken fount, 
Wherein tear-drippins stagnate, spilt down ever 
From the dank thoughts that shiver 
Upon the sighful branches of my mind. 
Such is; what is to be? 
The pulp so bitter, how shall taste the rind? 
I dimly guess what Time in mists confounds; 
Yet ever and anon a trumpet sounds 
From the hid battlements of Eternity; 
Those shaken mists a space unsettle, then 
Round the half-glimpsed turrets slowly wash again. 
But not ere him who summoneth 
I first have seen, enwound 
With glooming robes purpureal, cypress-crowned; 
His name I know and what his trumpet saith. 
Whether man's heart or life it be which yields 
Thee harvest, must Thy harvest-fields 
Be dunged with rotten death? 
Now of that long pursuit 
Comes on at hand the bruit; 
That Voice is round me like a bursting sea: 
'And is thy earth so marred, 
Shattered in shard on shard? 
Lo, all things fly thee, for thou fliest Me! 
Strange, piteous, futile thing! 
Wherefore should any set thee love apart? 
Seeing none but I makes much of naught' (He said), 
'And human love needs human meriting: 
How hast thou merited - 
Of all man's clotted clay the dingiest clot? 
Alack, thou knowest not 
How little worthy of any love thou art! 
Whom wilt thou find to love ignoble thee, 
Save Me, save only Me? 
All which I took from thee I did but take, 
Not for thy harms, 
But just that thou might'st seek it in My arms. 
All which thy child's mistake 
Fancies as lost, I have stored for thee at home: 
Rise, clasp My hand, and come!' 
Halts by me that footfall: 
Is my gloom, after all, 
Shade of His hand, outstretched caressingly? 
'Ah, fondest, blindest, weakest, 
I am He Whom thou seekest! 
Thou dravest love from thee, who dravest Me.'

 

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